was my first encounter
with any representation of an erotic slave.
For a very long time, she was my Ideal. As
I grew older, and actually spent some time as a
24/7 collared slave, some of my views changed.
There has been
speculation as to why the main character is named "O."
Is it the initial of her first name? Is it to
symbolize she is a hole? Is it to mean she is nothing?
Empty? The usefulness of a cup is its
emptiness. One cannot be open to new experiences, if one is already full
of old ones. A cup must
be empty, before more can go in.
O's lover takes her to the Chateau
de Roissy, to be trained as an erotic slave. During her stay,
O sleeps in bondage. I have trained myself
to do this, as well.
Her valet would
release her in the morning, then whip her. Being
whipped is to remind her of her position. To focus her
perception on being a slave, being used for the pleasure of
others. O was whipped first thing in the morning
and last thing at night.
She achieved a state of grace that would only be possible
under the bondage and discipline that was her daily life at Roissy. Always she was available.
I used to fantasize
about being whipped first thing in
the morning and last thing at night. I wondered how it would
affect me, and shape my psyche. Would it open doors
for me, or close them?
Would potential spring forth, or would it be crushed by
unjust treatment? Would it damage me? I have
been whipped many times, and I have whipped others many
times. My real life experiences are such, that a daily
whipping would likely have a negative result. An
experienced SM player would not be so irresponsible, to
think twice a day whippings would be a positive influence.
O needs to be whipped twice a day, because she is young and
untrained. I am not. I know the difference
between a good and bad whipper. I know the difference
between fantasy and reality, between cinema and real life.
H'istoire d'O is a movie. The things it depicts are
not real. The more real life SM experiences I have,
the more unrealistic the film becomes.
this film was my blue print for an erotic slave.
Now, I see it as a story about the Tao. It
is about staying on your Path, and being true to
your Way. It is about embracing who you
are, and not fighting it. This is the
route O takes.
O is like
a diamond: it must be cut for its beauty to
O is returned much improved to her
lover in Paris. After a time, she is told to meet him at
a private estate. There, O is told to serve Sir
Stephen as her new Master. He now owns her, and she is
to serve him with the same passion and devotion. O,
trained too well, can only take
the noble path: she will do what honors her lover.
She will not embarrass him in front of this new man. O
wants to demonstrate her lover is a man of quality, and does
not bring forth failures. She will give herself to
this man that does not love her, and she will be the most
beautiful diamond for him.
The movie captured a perfect
combination of elegance, vulnerability and submission.
In time, O comes to love Sir Stephen.
He has a room specially built just for her. It is a
room where she can be whipped. I think this is a great
expression of Sir Stephen's love for O. On their travels, they meet a young man who becomes
infatuated with O. To illustrate exactly who
she is, O displays her whipped body to him. She is proud and noble in her
suffering; daring this
man to look at her, and see the glory of her pain, and
to know this is who she really is. The young man
cannot stomach the strength of O's truth.
In the end, O's personal fulfillment and
greatness comes from embracing her erotic slavery.
She stands naked and unashamed, in her submission. She
is not defiant, proud nor confrontational.
She does not challenge the crowd with her
nakedness. She stands revealed in her
ascension is complete; she is Enlightened.
She is without guile, motivations,
preconceptions or affectations. She simply . . . is.